Wanna STOP JUSTIFYING Myself...!!!

Why do I feel it this way?
Why is my mind so confused?
Why is it troubling me so much?
Though I know how to get my tensions loosed...!!!

I hate to explain my acts to others
I know I'm not answerable to people
I know this is all My fucking life...!!!
Yet some confused Guilt eats me up from inside...

Why do I care to justify my thoughts so much?
Why do I strive to make things easy for people?
When I know that their comprehension SUCK..!!
And that they are Filthy Brainless Creatures...!!!

I get out of senses a lot
And then I dont know whats right and whats wrong

I exerted my mind beyond its capacity
May be thats why I got this Logical Laxity...
I didnt mean I was some Dumb before....
My thoughts are not stagnant,
I've got the abilties you can adore....

Just that I got a lot over-worked
And I didnt rest, but I kept giving my best
Now that my mind is tired...
Guess I need some time to recover..

Now I dont really know
How many of you got what I said..
But if I keep explaining myself...
One day I will really go mad...!!!

Dunno, when I'll get out of all this..
May be when I'm convinced,
I can't STOP people from taking WRONG MEANINGS...!!!

I Miss him..... :)

I visit him everyday
Like a drunkard vising a bar...

Its sweet to have him in my mind
But those memories mostly end up leaving me sour...

He is my baby boy
I want to love him
I want to cuddle him
I want to keep him like my soft toy

I miss you like hell
I fancy you like crazy
I always try and attempt to mend up the things...
But all the time you show me that you care a damn and you're busy..

I wished if you were mine
Life would have been fit and fine
I would have stood by you always
Would have never let you moan and whine

I wished if you were mine
I'm sure, through all evils and odds
We would have always shined..!! :)