Wanna STOP JUSTIFYING Myself...!!!

Why do I feel it this way?
Why is my mind so confused?
Why is it troubling me so much?
Though I know how to get my tensions loosed...!!!

I hate to explain my acts to others
I know I'm not answerable to people
I know this is all My fucking life...!!!
Yet some confused Guilt eats me up from inside...

Why do I care to justify my thoughts so much?
Why do I strive to make things easy for people?
When I know that their comprehension SUCK..!!
And that they are Filthy Brainless Creatures...!!!

I get out of senses a lot
And then I dont know whats right and whats wrong

I exerted my mind beyond its capacity
May be thats why I got this Logical Laxity...
I didnt mean I was some Dumb before....
My thoughts are not stagnant,
I've got the abilties you can adore....

Just that I got a lot over-worked
And I didnt rest, but I kept giving my best
Now that my mind is tired...
Guess I need some time to recover..

Now I dont really know
How many of you got what I said..
But if I keep explaining myself...
One day I will really go mad...!!!

Dunno, when I'll get out of all this..
May be when I'm convinced,
I can't STOP people from taking WRONG MEANINGS...!!!

I Miss him..... :)

I visit him everyday
Like a drunkard vising a bar...

Its sweet to have him in my mind
But those memories mostly end up leaving me sour...

He is my baby boy
I want to love him
I want to cuddle him
I want to keep him like my soft toy

I miss you like hell
I fancy you like crazy
I always try and attempt to mend up the things...
But all the time you show me that you care a damn and you're busy..

I wished if you were mine
Life would have been fit and fine
I would have stood by you always
Would have never let you moan and whine

I wished if you were mine
I'm sure, through all evils and odds
We would have always shined..!! :)

Life.. just play it right...!!

Life is like my friends say..
Let it suck, Let it fuck
Don't be sad
Just get done with that


It's not just about your fault
There are other people involved
Sometimes you learn a lesson
Sometimes you lose "The Only Person"


You can't hold it
You can't let it go
But only remember
Just don't get too low


Sometimes you get what you lost
Sometimes you gotta pay a huge cost
Sometimes you get the good you served
At times you suffer things, you don't deserve


But don't just sit down and moan
Take your time to heal yourself
Get back..And move on your own


Life just goes on and on..
STOP FEELING DEPRESSED, you moron...!!!


What ya waiting for??
Death to come?
Kill youself..? Think you are done??


Running away ain't no wise
It only shows out your cowardice
Face your problems, you gotta fight
Life's a game, just play it right...!!!

Looks Deceive...

My looks are deceiving
But the fact is I'm really very thrilling..
It's not my fault, if you can't see my this self
Probably the flaw lies in thyself..

If you are shallow,
You'll never know what I meant to say...
If you dig deep down your soul,
You'll know every part of me that I portray...

What you see over me
Is just the matter of circumstance
You can't judge me like this...!!
With just that one shallow glance..!!

I need a good exposure..
I'm gonna change slowly
I'm not shy,
I can face my life boldly

Currently, I'm a bit depressed..
My senses are bit oppressed
But all these hurts will heal in time
I may be slow, but I won't give up to climb

I'm a Passimo-Optimist..
I don't like this senseless life
But I'm a Warrior
Who won't give up and fly..

Yeah, my depression almost had me twice
I tried to end up my life

But here I am today, Infront of you..
Through all these hearbreaks....
Still writing to you...!! :)

It leaves me Horrified

Sometimes I feel,
You will fade off my mind
This thought ain't that kind,
It leaves me so horried...

I think sometimes,
There will be hundreds of buddies better then you
Terrible though, I can't let go, but just hold on to you

I wonder how to select best outta these..
Especially when each one will be equally appealing...

I study, I read Novels,
And I try my best to distract myself
Guess, I'm better off alone, then have anyone else..

What you take me as?
Just your counsellor?
And I'm still stuck on to figure out..
If you were really a liar..!!

In my sense, I feel love for you all the same,
Admitting to you all this, is as usual pretty lame..
For the intolerance you have developed to me..
It's difficult for me, to be what I want to be..!!

Meow....

Meow....
(She is never gonna wish you this way now)

'Cause we broke off..
For the beauty that you value,
I don't have it, to show off...

Meow....
(She cannot say this to you now..!!)

For you blocked me from all the sides,
And you don't want me in your life...
Congrates..!! You got a new girlfriend,
 And left me alone here, Just to Sigh....!!

(Meow...)
Hey,
That used to make your day..
Yeah, I know,
You used to just flirt and play...

Meow...
(The Puss-wuss is alone now..!!)

Stuck up in the memories of past
Thought, now my mind would blast...

(Meow...
Don't ask her why and how..?!)

Its too lame to repeat it again
You know it, We are just the same...
And I didn't want to lose this game...

I was down in my life
When I behaved that way with you
But You werent less than a neurotic..
You accept that, Don't you??

Didn't you like everything I did??
Didn't you like everything about me??
What's the matter now sweetheart??
What kind of problem into are we??

Can't we just forgive our faults??
Can't we just let it go??
You think you are a flawless being??
Temme..!! Is it so??

Won't you ever let me in your life again?
Don't you give a fuck about my stabbing pain?
And I thought, we were atleast friends...
Nevertheless, you left me alone in this hurricane

It hurts to know,
That you don't need me anymore
For the beauty that you command..
I ain't got it to show...

(Meow-- Think you gotta move ahead..
Now I got a brain fag...
It's your same old love story..
Would be better, if you don't drag.... )

This one is for my Orkut Sis-- Mysterious Angel ....

You manifest your mystery..
But none seems to recognise
Like you hide your sorrows...
Because People are Unwise..
And you have talent...
Which none can realise...
Open up Sis,
And let the Art fly...
I do not commit...
But I shall not lie...
Try me out sometimes...
I may prove worthwhile...!!!