Do I Hold on?? Or Push it away???

I have no Guts...
To say that I hate You
Nor can I admit,
That may be I still love you

I don't know
If I want you to go away
Nor I think, I wish to come
If you take me, with you to stay


Can Neither bring it out
Nor hold it in my self
Such is the pain I bear
Which willingly goes uncared


My world is going round
May be I wish to hear your sound
If I say "I still miss you"
Do I sound like a stupid clown??
Or could it be that, you are better not around...?!


Whatever that happened has left a scar
My trust over you has fallen apart

Prove it to me, If you deserve it
If you wish to fill this space
In my Life, May be I should await it..!!


I heard a sound...
That was my phone alarm...


I woke up in a startled way
Hey... I see its a New day...


Was it a dream or a nightmare??
I don't know... Do you really care??


Life-- it goes on all its way...
May be... Or should I really push you away??