Wanna STOP JUSTIFYING Myself...!!!

Why do I feel it this way?
Why is my mind so confused?
Why is it troubling me so much?
Though I know how to get my tensions loosed...!!!

I hate to explain my acts to others
I know I'm not answerable to people
I know this is all My fucking life...!!!
Yet some confused Guilt eats me up from inside...

Why do I care to justify my thoughts so much?
Why do I strive to make things easy for people?
When I know that their comprehension SUCK..!!
And that they are Filthy Brainless Creatures...!!!

I get out of senses a lot
And then I dont know whats right and whats wrong

I exerted my mind beyond its capacity
May be thats why I got this Logical Laxity...
I didnt mean I was some Dumb before....
My thoughts are not stagnant,
I've got the abilties you can adore....

Just that I got a lot over-worked
And I didnt rest, but I kept giving my best
Now that my mind is tired...
Guess I need some time to recover..

Now I dont really know
How many of you got what I said..
But if I keep explaining myself...
One day I will really go mad...!!!

Dunno, when I'll get out of all this..
May be when I'm convinced,
I can't STOP people from taking WRONG MEANINGS...!!!

I Miss him..... :)

I visit him everyday
Like a drunkard vising a bar...

Its sweet to have him in my mind
But those memories mostly end up leaving me sour...

He is my baby boy
I want to love him
I want to cuddle him
I want to keep him like my soft toy

I miss you like hell
I fancy you like crazy
I always try and attempt to mend up the things...
But all the time you show me that you care a damn and you're busy..

I wished if you were mine
Life would have been fit and fine
I would have stood by you always
Would have never let you moan and whine

I wished if you were mine
I'm sure, through all evils and odds
We would have always shined..!! :)

Life.. just play it right...!!

Life is like my friends say..
Let it suck, Let it fuck
Don't be sad
Just get done with that


It's not just about your fault
There are other people involved
Sometimes you learn a lesson
Sometimes you lose "The Only Person"


You can't hold it
You can't let it go
But only remember
Just don't get too low


Sometimes you get what you lost
Sometimes you gotta pay a huge cost
Sometimes you get the good you served
At times you suffer things, you don't deserve


But don't just sit down and moan
Take your time to heal yourself
Get back..And move on your own


Life just goes on and on..
STOP FEELING DEPRESSED, you moron...!!!


What ya waiting for??
Death to come?
Kill youself..? Think you are done??


Running away ain't no wise
It only shows out your cowardice
Face your problems, you gotta fight
Life's a game, just play it right...!!!

Looks Deceive...

My looks are deceiving
But the fact is I'm really very thrilling..
It's not my fault, if you can't see my this self
Probably the flaw lies in thyself..

If you are shallow,
You'll never know what I meant to say...
If you dig deep down your soul,
You'll know every part of me that I portray...

What you see over me
Is just the matter of circumstance
You can't judge me like this...!!
With just that one shallow glance..!!

I need a good exposure..
I'm gonna change slowly
I'm not shy,
I can face my life boldly

Currently, I'm a bit depressed..
My senses are bit oppressed
But all these hurts will heal in time
I may be slow, but I won't give up to climb

I'm a Passimo-Optimist..
I don't like this senseless life
But I'm a Warrior
Who won't give up and fly..

Yeah, my depression almost had me twice
I tried to end up my life

But here I am today, Infront of you..
Through all these hearbreaks....
Still writing to you...!! :)

It leaves me Horrified

Sometimes I feel,
You will fade off my mind
This thought ain't that kind,
It leaves me so horried...

I think sometimes,
There will be hundreds of buddies better then you
Terrible though, I can't let go, but just hold on to you

I wonder how to select best outta these..
Especially when each one will be equally appealing...

I study, I read Novels,
And I try my best to distract myself
Guess, I'm better off alone, then have anyone else..

What you take me as?
Just your counsellor?
And I'm still stuck on to figure out..
If you were really a liar..!!

In my sense, I feel love for you all the same,
Admitting to you all this, is as usual pretty lame..
For the intolerance you have developed to me..
It's difficult for me, to be what I want to be..!!

Meow....

Meow....
(She is never gonna wish you this way now)

'Cause we broke off..
For the beauty that you value,
I don't have it, to show off...

Meow....
(She cannot say this to you now..!!)

For you blocked me from all the sides,
And you don't want me in your life...
Congrates..!! You got a new girlfriend,
 And left me alone here, Just to Sigh....!!

(Meow...)
Hey,
That used to make your day..
Yeah, I know,
You used to just flirt and play...

Meow...
(The Puss-wuss is alone now..!!)

Stuck up in the memories of past
Thought, now my mind would blast...

(Meow...
Don't ask her why and how..?!)

Its too lame to repeat it again
You know it, We are just the same...
And I didn't want to lose this game...

I was down in my life
When I behaved that way with you
But You werent less than a neurotic..
You accept that, Don't you??

Didn't you like everything I did??
Didn't you like everything about me??
What's the matter now sweetheart??
What kind of problem into are we??

Can't we just forgive our faults??
Can't we just let it go??
You think you are a flawless being??
Temme..!! Is it so??

Won't you ever let me in your life again?
Don't you give a fuck about my stabbing pain?
And I thought, we were atleast friends...
Nevertheless, you left me alone in this hurricane

It hurts to know,
That you don't need me anymore
For the beauty that you command..
I ain't got it to show...

(Meow-- Think you gotta move ahead..
Now I got a brain fag...
It's your same old love story..
Would be better, if you don't drag.... )

This one is for my Orkut Sis-- Mysterious Angel ....

You manifest your mystery..
But none seems to recognise
Like you hide your sorrows...
Because People are Unwise..
And you have talent...
Which none can realise...
Open up Sis,
And let the Art fly...
I do not commit...
But I shall not lie...
Try me out sometimes...
I may prove worthwhile...!!!

Dedicated to the One I Love....

Slowly he comes in my dreams
Slowly he takes away my sleep

This was my past
Alas !!
Guess, any longer it won't last

Hehe !! Saw you today..
He was right,
You're too good at your play

Now I get it
You deserve someone better than me
I know, I ain't worth any shit

When I think of myself,
I feel very small
And you standing there,
The Master of all

Feel like it was an honour
To have you in my life
For what I put you through
Now I can only sigh....

I really Respect you
For what you are...
I Lost you now...!!
You are already gone too far...

I don't deserve you
You're simply too great
I should have realised this before
Now I guess it's too late

My mind is telling me
Guess You were Never Mine...
It's alright now, dude...
I'll try and be fine...

My words of apology...
They won't make any sense
I have lost you Forever...
Now I have no chance...!!

My Break Up...

Better late then Never
Finally I decide
To give up thinking of you Forever...

Thanks dear,
Thanks for all these things you did to me
You were right..
I'm strong now, it built up my immunity

I've shut myself to love
I won't fall prey to this shit again
Thanks a lot to you,
I'm too scared to make another boyfriend...!!

I don't get this...
What have I done??
Why people always ruin my fun?

If Beauty...
That was all you wanted..
So, when you saw my first scary picture...
Was your brain haunted??

Do I love you? or I hate you...?!
Do I really miss you? Do I still want you?
Now these questions are too tough to get through..!!

I think it was my great mistake..
I thought of trying you out for that Idiot's sake..!!
I was happy then, if he hadn't had forced me
And you bloody knew everything..!! What were you, watching a movie??

I gave him many reasons to keep you away...
But "he is the best for you", that's what he would always say...
You too went on asking, whether we are couples or more then friends..
And I kept on avoiding that TO MY BEST I COULD MAN...!!!

Guess it was my fault that day to admit to you my love
But somehow I still feel, You were the best one I could ever have
For the type of understanding all this while we were sharin'
Who wouldn't have believed that WERE really Twins?

Some else say, you were too good for me...
Cuz, you're very stylish, and I'm an ugly duckling..!!
May be I'm really good for nothing
Inspite of so many Similarities we were sharing

I had a damn good time with you
For so many lines of thoughts we drew
Every fucking day, for an hour, the fucking sex talks we had...
Now none exists, its my bad....!!!

It was fun to bug the hell outta you...
Little abnormalities of sex you heard, and your fuse blew
Awe, you were such a cute baby, then..!!
All the hell of ideas I put your little brain through...!!

It was such a wonder, you called me by different names
Pussycat, Furball, Meow, Witty-kitty...!!
I know, it was too lame of me,
That I just called you my chweet nutty...!!

Yeah, you called me playgirl.
Outta anger though, I said you're Jerk
Well, you shouldn't have disturbed the time
When we could boldly flirt

I wanted to make this poem quite offensive
But guess you're too good, so I thought of being a little passive
Yes, your this act has made me a lot defensive
But I hope, when I'm ever with you, I'll be calm and receptive...!!

I don't know if you ever wanna see me...
I dunno whats gonna be our fate....!!!
I dunno, if ever you gonna like me again
But still, in the corner of my heart, for you I'll await

Whenever a couple breaks...
We end up blaming either of the partner..
And tell them to move on
But it's not necessary that you are bad
I trust you,
You were the gem of a person I ever had
We are still atleast friends, yeah, I'm very glad

I hope you won't break my faith
Let my words have atleast some weight...
I'm sure, You ain't no fake
And I'm sorry for all the hurts and mistakes

Honey, trust me
I still love you
Oh god damn fuck,
I know, you want me to forget you..!!

I wonder, while all this time I was with you,
How and Why my understanding went outta window
Hell, I was not supposed to think of you...
But I can't help it, for all my attention that you borrow
I ended up writing this poem over you and my sorrow

In the haste and anger I made some wrong moves
Well, we did our mistakes, and the hell we put ourselves through...
Guess in the end, I behaved in a fury
For all that happened sweety, I'm really very sorry...!! :((

Face It...!!!

I feel inspired..
Today I'm not fucked up, nor tired.
She sprinkled life in me
With her positive talk
I feel happy and confident
Now alone I can walk

Problems come, problems go
Through them all, you gotta shine
It's all temporary dear...
Don't be depressed, it's pointless to whine

Throughout your whole life,
Through the hell you'll have to go
Don't give in, don't give up
Don't let your spirit get low

You can choose to be negative
And let your progress stay still
You can be positive and move on
And with your bad time, you can surely deal..!!

So, off I go
Away from the sorrows....
I promise to fight and give my best
And bravely face all the hard blows..!!

Helpless

Lost...
Cant think...
Mind seems like a hard brick..!!

Thoughts don't penetrate
Words go uncomprehended
What kinda is this a mind state??

Can't do a thing in peace
I need to change often and quick
Five minutes I read, Ten minutes I sleep
If this goes on...
I'm sure, I'm gonna get my future ripped...!!

Sometimes I feel I love him
Sometimes its the hatred I have, it seems
My life is so haywire
I'm so sick of it, I'm tired
So uninspired..
Yet everyday I respire...

I'm confused, it's so complicated..
But he doesn't give a damn,
I'm fucking frustrated...

Whatever happened to me..
Makes me feel so depressed
I won't die...
But I have no interests

Move on, move on, GODDAMN MOVE ON...!!
To myself I tell
Life is so fucked up
Feel like living in a hell..!!

Life's a game, I agree...
I gotta fucking play
I wonder, I'm still alive here...
But I'm too frustrated to stay

I have lost, and I have lost enough
But No, Not Anymore...
I'll turn the heaven to the hell...
And I'll see that I reach the shore..!!

Kick their Asses....

Guys come, and guys go
Don't be pissed, but go wit the flow.
Flirting, breaking, blaming,
That's all they do..
But in your life, sweety,
Remember, you gotta move...!!


Don't give a damn
Whatever that they say
But don't forget baby
Now safe you gotta play


Don't fall for their sweet words
For most of them are useless jerks
Treat them like some street dogs
Cuz all they want is to get us fucked


What's in relation?
That's all is Nature's trap
To preserve it's creation


So, what's  in guys?
Cutie-pies
Beware of their sweet lies...!!


C'mon girls, grow up now
Use your brains, kick their ass
This is all they deserve, so let us vow
Never ever to get into their shitty mess...!!