Helpless

Lost...
Cant think...
Mind seems like a hard brick..!!

Thoughts don't penetrate
Words go uncomprehended
What kinda is this a mind state??

Can't do a thing in peace
I need to change often and quick
Five minutes I read, Ten minutes I sleep
If this goes on...
I'm sure, I'm gonna get my future ripped...!!

Sometimes I feel I love him
Sometimes its the hatred I have, it seems
My life is so haywire
I'm so sick of it, I'm tired
So uninspired..
Yet everyday I respire...

I'm confused, it's so complicated..
But he doesn't give a damn,
I'm fucking frustrated...

Whatever happened to me..
Makes me feel so depressed
I won't die...
But I have no interests

Move on, move on, GODDAMN MOVE ON...!!
To myself I tell
Life is so fucked up
Feel like living in a hell..!!

Life's a game, I agree...
I gotta fucking play
I wonder, I'm still alive here...
But I'm too frustrated to stay

I have lost, and I have lost enough
But No, Not Anymore...
I'll turn the heaven to the hell...
And I'll see that I reach the shore..!!